new plan: PBR and box wine. We will save $$$. I am in a conservation mode, and it suits me. I don't want to work more right now. I also want to say that "prodigal" means "abundant", even "lavish". for years i thought the word had to do with the son's return, not with the celebration that accompanied it. i missed the whole point! i learned this from B Kingsolver. i love her. there is no need to write b/c she is the BEST.

What to do with happiness?

Not that anyone is reading, but I still feel badly that I haven't posted in almost 2 months. It's hard to come up with something for a negativity blog when I've been feeling relatively happy. The truth is, feeling happy for this long makes me nervous. I suspect I'm not alone in this. When things go well for too long, those of us who see the glass half empty wonder when said glass will shatter all to hell. It simply is not a normal state of being. Not to mention I dread becoming one of those people who is so constantly upbeat that other people want to throttle me. My negative thoughts are not all gone, I assure you. Just this morning I looked at my feet and thought "how ugly!" I have thought about this imperfection all day, and it's bringing me down. Ahhh! That's better.